|looking oh so classy roasting cacao beans with new friends at a chocolate workshop|
Luckily, lately the universe has been helping me out - pulling me back into my heart when I start to doubt it too much. In a rock, an uncovered love note, a new friend, all the amazingly supportive people I am so grateful to have in my life, a chocolate museum (more on that later), it's been showing me that the way I have chosen is indeed the right one for me, for right now.
Although I came to Peru with a set plan and a heart bursting with excitement about completing my yoga teacher training at a school in Cusco, I started to be fraught with doubts and anxieties and strong desires to run away into the jungle. I am indecisive at best and my fickleness leads to anxiety and uncertainty about what it is I am doing pretty quickly. With bags under my eyes, insomnia, and not having cooked a meal since leaving Ecuador, I've been homesick, heart sick, and just plain altitude sick - all of this culminating in self-doubt (what does my heart know anyway?).
But today I met a girl in my yoga class and after practice we went for lunch and spoke about the school in Cusco and her journey. It pulled me back and I realized that my original plan - based on impulse and instinct - was the right one.
Besides, you really can't underestimate the healing and grounding effects of good coffee on a sun-filled patio for a Toronto girl such as myself. All I need now is a good Jeanette Winterson book to really bring my heart home.
coffee, city cafes, and cats. what my heart craves.
|llama kisses for you|